There is a place that our hearts can go. Some have been there and some have been blessed not to. This place, call it depression, hard times, tragedy, or a mixture of all of the above, is a dark place. That place where you feel like you have nothing to sing about.
Sometimes, we are in a place that swallows us up to the point where we stop seeing God’s mercy and grace for what it is. As if our pain means we can’t be close to God. These words are for anyone who feels too hurt and too broken to draw close to their Father because they don’t have it together. In fact, they’re far from it. It’s for the girl who is embarrassed of their depression and ashamed that they can’t seem to just ‘be happy’ even though God is watching over her.
Here’s the thing — God doesn’t need us to be happy to praise Him. God doesn’t require us to only engage in happy praise. There are trials on this earth, that are hard and frankly sometimes life just sucks. But we have a Father that doesn’t shy away from the ugly in our lives. He wants a relationship. That means He wants our anger and our pain and our suffering to be communicated with Him.
God loves the sound of a broken hallelujah.
Not because He is not a loving God, but because there is something about His children praising Him through the storm. It’s easy to sing songs when things are going well. But what happens when we are broken and when we don’t feel like there is anything to sing about.
Authenticity in relationships is born when they go through trials. God loves the sound of a broken hallelujah because He loves the sound of our voices. He wants a raw and real relationship with us. Not a pretty one. He loves the sound of us reaching towards heaven despite the trials on earth and even more God loves to listen to those broken hallelujahs. He loves to make sure His children are heard.
If you’re like me, you shy away from God when you’re hurting. For me, it’s because I don’t like anyone to know I’m hurting so when it comes to my human self I somehow think I can hide that from our Father. For you, it might be because you’re ashamed or think He doesn’t care about what you’re going through. But if you’re reading this and you think that there isn’t a point in opening you’re heart because it isn’t a happy one, please hear this:
God loves you when you’re angry with Him.
He loves you when you’re selfish.
He loves you when your depression changes what seems to be every bit of you.
He loves you when you’ve lost.
He loves you when you’ve taken from others.
He doesn’t just love you in your darkness, but through your darkness.
Find relief in the fact that we don’t have to have it all together. We can be a mess, angry, and hurt and still be heard.
God loves the sound of a broken hallelujah because He loves you.